Happy New Year

I am so glad that we are starting a new year. A fresh start. A new beginning.

My grandmother passed away yesterday. It was a quite day at our house, and my boyfriend brought me flowers. He also brought a plant for the family. It showed how much he cares about me.

But 2011 is going to be a good year. I can feel it already and I am excited to ring in the new year.

So starting tomorrow!!!!! I will:

1. write once a week
2. take a photo once a week (52 weeks in a year)
3. be more organized
4. enjoy the little things : )
5. spend more time with loved ones.

Good and Bad

In life, it seems, that you must take the good with the bad. This month seems a little crazy, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Of course, if I could, I would change a few things, but I am not God nor do I know what he has in store for all of us.

This month seems like a roller coaster ride. In early December, my grandmother fell and broke her back, so she was in the hospital for a few days, then she needed to go to rehab until she could live on her own again. Then she got pneumonia and a lot of other health complications and is not expected to live much longer.

My best friend was involved in a serious car accident and severely broke her wrist. It is something that might or might not require surgery, depending on how everything works out, but it is something that causes her severe pain.

And it was our third Christmas without my brother. I wasn't really happy, but I wasn't sad either. So it was a good day, despite the fact that I felt sick and slept through most of it.

For Christmas, I got a boyfriend. He asked me when he gave me my present. I care so much about him and I am happy that he is in my life right now because he makes all of this suck less. I am really glad that I met him.

He is definitely one of the good things to come out of this month. And my friend getting into the car accident really showed her what an amazing person her boyfriend is. He was really there for her when she needed him to be.

Its times like this entire month that makes me believe that everything happens for a reason. And you just have to learn that life just is what it is.

I am just glad that the new year is almost here. I can't wait to make new mistakes, say I love you, and have the best experiences of my life.

I think that possibly, mabye...

These words are speaking to my soul - Landon Pigg - Falling in Love in a Coffee Shop. I am also really digging Katy Perry's -I Think I'm Ready because I am ready to be a woman.

Don't get me wrong, I love the rain...

Rainy Summer Afternoon, originally uploaded by emberangel.

Don't get me wrong, I love the rain..but this is just too much. It seems like bad news always comes in threes. It has been raining for four days without a break. And because of the weather conditions and the way people drive, my friend was involved in a serious accident. She isn't seriously injured, but she shattered her wrist, so the next few months will be difficult for her. The whole experience has made me nervous of the rain. I love it when I am home in the rain, relaxing.. but other than that, I wish it would stop. According to the weather forecast, the rain won't stop till Wednesday. This is more rain than southern California is used to.
That was the second piece of bad news I've received recently (the accident, not the rain). The first piece is that my grandmother fell, broke her back, and has to live in a rehab center until she can live on her own again. Then this morning, we got a phone call saying that she is back in the hospital because she has pneumonia and has been having serious difficulties breathing.
I keep expecting to hear worse news, but I guess I've had my quota of three bad things. I think now comes some good, like Christmas and presents and a good time.

Christmas Spirit

Well I don't know about you, but it just doesn't seem like christmas this year. Next Saturday will be Christmas and I am just not in the holiday spirit.
Tomorrow I will be going to look at the Christmas lights. There is a neighborhood in my community where every single house has Christmas decorations up (and good ones too). Perhaps that will put me into a holiday mood. If not, there is always ice skating, hot chocolate, and baking next week. If all else fails there will be a fresh homemade Cinnamon roll hot from the oven, a stocking with my name on it, and presents under the tree. So even if I won't be in the holiday spirit, I will be fat and rich with love.

new mistakes

From every mistake is a new learning experience, but you don't learn anything new when you keep making the same mistake over and over again. Mistakes are good. Especially when you are young. It means that you are living your life and you have the opportunity to grow. If you never make mistakes, you never learn the type of person that you are when everything is going wrong. So ALWAYS make new mistakes.

I wonder..

“All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect... who might be searching for us.” -- The Wonder Years