this week

This week has helped me to feel very confident in my job. I know that I can do just about anything if given enough time and motivation.
And right now I am motivated to do well at work so that when I am finished with college I can truly succeed. I hope that when I'm done I will have a full time job waiting for me. I can always dream.
I know that there's the potential for it. And now I know that I want it because it fits my personality. I do something different all the time and its great. I learn new skills and practice old ones.
I just have to practice patience.

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Decisions

I found an image online a few months ago that really struck me. It was a photo of a girl standing on the side of the road with a suitcase behind her. In red ink across the photo, someone had written, "I'm afraid of how the decisions I'm making are going to affect the rest of my life." 

It hit me. That is what I an afraid of. In a way I am almost more afraid of the decisions I am not making.

Today at work though, we were taking about future projects and where the company should be in a few years time. I started to think, that maybe I do have a future there. The degree I am getting right now might not be needed for said career, but it will be nice to have nonetheless. And it will be something that no one can take away from me.

I'm constantly wondering though: am I making the right choices in my life. Right now I could be married to a wonderful man and I would probably be happier than I am right now. But I just didn't think it was the right time for me. I needed someone who could be around more. And that decision has affected the rest of my life. I feel as if I have so much more potential because I decided to walk away. I have the potential to have a happier life. Which ever decision I had made at that point still would have lead me to happiness, so maybe all of the decisions we face in life aren't as scary as we make them out to be. They are just there as options. If we don't choose anything than we are stuck in a holding pattern and we never grow, we never learn. So decisions, whether we do the right thing or not, are still good. They are still important. And they affect our lives no matter what.

So we should just smile and trust in ourselves.

Career Path

There are so many possibilities out there and I am not sure what career path I want. I could do so many things. Soon I will have a degree in English which pretty much means I can write and understand most texts. I feel as if I could do anything in writing, after a little experience in the field. But I would rather edit, but I don't have that much experience doing it. If it is something that I want to do, I should try and pursue it and see if it is the career for me. That is all anyone can do. Try. And if I fail, I can handle it. I will just know that it wasn't meant to be. Or if I fail and still want to do it, I will just have to work harder until I get it right.

Who am I?

I am more than just a name on a resume, a voice on the phone. I breathe. I live. I write. I create. I am a writer and a photographer who loves to my creativity in simple and honest ways. In speaking, in life, and in writing I like to get to the point. Cut to the core of an issue.
I like to be challenged in new and exciting ways to prove to myself, and others, that I can do anything that I set my mind to. I have never felt extremely talented in one particular field, instead my talent is that I have ability in many different fields. I haven't found too many fields that I am "bad" at.
I worked my entire college career. Since November 2006, I have worked as a receptionist at a local dentist office. While there I learned several valuable skills. When I first started, I wouldn't have called myself a people person, but now I can work with patients with ease. Throughout my years there I have learned to do so many tasks and my only hope is that I have made others jobs easier and more enjoyable.
I also started working for a small internet gaming and website company. I have already been there for over a year, and I can say with complete confidence that I have learned so many new things, and yet there is so much left for me to learn. It is the perfect environment for me because I love to learn. I began with a clean slate. I had no idea how to create a website, add content, or what you did after that. Now I know the value of SEO and social marketing and even what it means-- as well as how to edit and add content to a website. In addition, I have learned how to add text components to RPG games and even how to build simple games in adobe flash. This job has taught me so much and I am so grateful that I was given the opportunity to learn.
But I am so much more than the jobs I have.
I am 22 and about to graduate from college. At which point I will have to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life. I can answer with absolute certainty that I have NO IDEA what I want to do after college. My hope is that this blog will help me find out more about myself (and let others learn about me). I also hope that it will help me to become a better writer and help be figure out what I want to do with my life. All I know is that I don't want to be sitting in the parking lot as everyone passes me in the fast lane.